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09:29 am: its been forever so i thought id update
so..sadly..i havent updated in like forever..and i really dont have anything important to say.

nothing is changing for me.

well i did get  a newish hair color..which is really just closer to my natural color..bcuz i just died it to get rid of the blonde all the sun put in it this summer..

but other than that..school is school

work STINKS

and boys are gay.


exciting eh?

05:13 pm:

07:44 pm: hmm
BADS:

* summer is flying by
* boys are being gay. i cant even explain.  i never thought id have this much trouble getting over somebody. w/e that was like a month ago
* two a days suck
* and they last forever
* i have no time anymore
* the gym for two a days has NO FAN, NO AC, NOTHING..just body heat!

GOODS:
* ppl are being stupid but im tending to brush that off, even though it might come back and bite me in the booty!
* my freinds are AMAZING!
* i have an interview at subway ..maybe i can work with my lara..bcuz i have so much free time right?
*only 20 more two a day practices!


idk...maybe youll miss me. but im tired of being the one who puts out all the effort.

10:38 am: woah yea!
omgoodness ive had too much fun lately.

ppl are amazing. ESPECIALLY sara & Katie!


the fair and circus were both fun with them.

afterwards talk about fun too!


WHO LOCKS THE DANG DOOR?!! OMGOSH! WHERE THE HECK IS MY FOOD?? lol me and sara should not be allowed on the road or anywhere for that matter after like midnight.


the cookie dough was still great though.


hmm well im packing for softball nationals which i cant say im too excited for. i mean its fun but idk i think its just that we've qualified and gone SOO many times and i could be going to cheer camp..*Sigh*


but im ill be gone all next week so call me and keep me company. ill probably be shopping or playing but still CALL

umm

thats it

oh yea boys lately SUUUCK
but its ok

later love
ME!

10:50 pm: my last two days have been AMAZING! ever since me and saras "date" haha

umm lets see

marys surprise party!

JUMPING IN THE POOL, MUD FIGHT, RINSE IN A PUDDLE, JUMP IN THE POOL AGAIN, MUD FIGHT!!

playing in the rain.

CLIFF JUMPING was the best! me and sara are so brave haha


umm fairs , friends, fun, its amazing


i still miss you!, but i cant keep telling myself that you miss me too

10:11 pm: hum de dum.
well the last week my friends have been amazing i must say! unfortunately it hasnt really taken my mind off of things

anywho sam crone is wonderful.our fourth of july was the best ever. we did so much! 3 parks, harveys, getting an 18 yr old to buy us fireworks, watching fireworks, hanging out with ppl, starbucks run @ 1, elmers glue masks..ha wow


umm me and sara had an amazing time (at least i think) at the midnight show of pirates of the caribbean soo many ppl were there ..goodness

my state tourney this weekend is being really really really fun and some of the girls are helping my mind wander too

but i just cant help it i guess,

ive NEVER wanted somebody to miss me so bad

09:47 pm: SUMMMERRRR~~~ YAHOOO/BOOOO
yahoo too:

1. no more tests
2. no more homework
3. no more stupid people..well kind of thats pretty well everywhere
4. no more drama..hopefully
5. ill be a junior next year
6. tanning
7. softball
8. volleyball
9. cheerleading
10. tanning
11. swimming
12. HOT hot weather
13. counterpoints kids camp

boo to:

1. buh bye seniors :'(
2. trying to manage number 7, 8, 9, &13
3. not enough time
4. joe moving
5. people leaving me
6. losing touch with good friends
7. SENIORS ARE LEAVING!!!



..hmm eh?

tonight was eventful..i tripped, i ran smack dab into a microphone stand..def. most embarassing moment..o goodness

o well

im kind of down..a little sleepy..bed early? on the first night of summer? hmm probably

04:50 pm: ive had an epiphany...kind of
bah..first of all im really sick of softball i love it..but im sick of some of the girls..like the fact that since we dont have a jv they practice with us..and it doesnt help us any there isnt a challege..all it is is us getting frustrated because they dont know what they are doing..sounds mean i know ..and i know that they havent played as long or w/e but its not that..its that they dont care..they fool around..and we are all really sick of it

im going to be really upset if i have worked my butt off like the last 8 years and now ive come to this..the girls that have played long are all really upset about it..we are just at a stop ..we arent learning anything and our team is ...just bahhh...im really sick of it..if i hear them talking about something else in the dug out during an important game and its about their boyfriends or something gay like that..ill probably lose it..


anyways im just really frustrated and idk ..grr.well this was probably pointless but man

oh yea ..school ends soon..yay and..boo?


hmm..

thats all now

....me....

05:46 am: hmm..i hate cancer..

im sure everyone does..but i mean it ruins millions of peoples lives..and hurts families..its attacked and killed several people on both sides of my family..and now it continues...hmm all i can do is pray..

..oh and i hate it when family doesnt tell u things to try to keep u from the stress or pain or w/e it may be..but still u find out..

geez..*sigh*

well on a brighter note today is ASHLEYS (TINYS) 16TH BIRTHDAY! im really excited for her and after my game totally going to her party..well..thats about it

09:17 pm: praying harder, wishing deeper
...hmm prom sat. oh yea..im excited..

of course that comes after my massive amounts of homework and my softball games..


o well

i just really hope im not wasting my time as i have in the past..it would be the biggest let down of all

08:42 pm: oh goodness
wow i cant even begin to go into all the fun i had in florida, the parisailing, 4wheeling, go karting (running a girl off the road ) it was so fun constantly..every random thing we did..weird faces dancing in parking lots and getting caught..boogie boarding, skid boarding, ppl thinking we are either seniors or college then finding out we're 16 was funny..

man..but after all of that fun..i just cant get back into school yet..i just cant focus..idk..

plus over a week with a person is a long time..there is a lot you hold back just to avoid agruements..and it worked there werent any..but now im just blunt and kind of grumpy i dont mean to be..but i feel like ive been censoring and been put into a little container or become a mime idk..its bad news though

i just feel like..lately ppl are just kind of blowing me off..idk how to explain it so dont take it wrong or anything bcuz it probably sounds worse than it is..but like..ppl will do things that will help them to make me look bad..idk maybe i do that on my own?

hmm..just i need to sing VERY VERY LOUD for about 24 hours straight and i think id be great..


anyways.. this next part is probably the MOST IMPORTANT


schools ending soon..and idk how to feel..i hate this i really do..first i think i have lost some of my senior friends bcuz they dont talk to me much..and yea it stinks..and then i feel like im going to be 17 soon..that is terrible..i dont want to get older..like at all no matter how much i say i hate it..i dont want to be older..ever..it goes so fast..i dont want to be a junior bcuz then that means one more year..yay no homework right? well what about all the friends u lose..idk..i just feel like every moment im wasting my life..and i just want to get out and do stuff..and yet relax at the same time? idk..graduation this year..= bad news!!!!!


hmm o well i dont think anybody reads these anymore anyways..but thats all

later <3
Lauren

09:48 am: god = amazing
i know everyone already knows that god is amazing..but still

anyways without him ..there is no way i would have ever made it through this week ...but thank goodness it is over..all the stress gone..complete relief everything worked out exactly how i wanted..boy..all that running everyone..sure helped..man i am pure excitement..i cant wait for next year now..:D

well thats all i have to say i need to get ready to go watch ryans game..then i have to pack..

plane leaves monday..baah..i just pray that goes well :D..

well everyone have a safe and wonderful springbreak! see ya next week

<3 Lauren

10:58 pm: THE MOST STRESSFUL WEEK OF MY LIFE!
ahh and to think its almost over ..THANK GOODNESS

heres what went down:

monday:
softball 3:30-5ish
choir tryouts (which i missed the beginning to ) 5ish-6ish
cheer open gym 6-7
more choir stuff 7-8

tuesday:
softball game!!
work on english speech
practice my solo/dances


wednesday:
group tryouts for choir
softball
english project until about 12:30 a.m.

thursday:
give speeches
solo tryout
softball
cheer tryouts (which i bombed and probably will not be making along with my solo)

friday:
softball
find out about all previous tryouts..
be ready for huge let down

its been soo stressful just getting from place to place..tryout to not miss things..it wasnt necessarily like wearing me down..i know i could do it all..but the fact that times overlapped SUCKED


im so ready for florida ..me & jayci leave monday (flying=really scary...maybe ill like it ?) yea then we wont be home until next monday..its so time to get away.please be super duperity hot since its going to be nice here..knowing my luck it will be like rainy there or something..hmm

anywho..i just needed to get out about how much *baaah!* i guess is a good way to describe it..ive been through this week

well later love

<3 Lauren

08:13 pm: .:in a world full of chaos you are my calm:.
....everything is absoloutely nuts right now......


i still cant put a face to the girl...hmm so sad..nobody should ever be killed so young :/


try outs for probably eveyrthing u can imagine are going on right now..which is not helping my case...so much that im having nightmares..wonderful



another competition this weekend YAY!..ha..yea with the automatic 60 points we get taken off for not having a live band..hmm yea we'll be winning..im going to give a big N-O to that..but it will still be really fun and good criticism even though im not really in the mood for criticism


...in ways this year should end like now..and others..it should stay this year for like ever...idk



boy o boy..well thats all i have to say..

08:21 pm: ..oh we're still so young desperate for attention, i aim to be your eyes trophy boys trophy wives
anywho..i am telling u what I LOVE STRESS haha..mm no but its getting better


lets see..

AMAZINGLY scary speeches in english due..boo..

chem homework that i brought home ..without the paper somehow? ahh so i have to do that in the morning

hmm..lets see..a couple more days before competition..I AM AMAZINGLY EXCITED..i wish it was like..tomorrow yet i know we're not ready but i think it will be a blast..

man and to say the least..just typing about competition makes me shaky :/

dear lord: ...please let us do well

..im super excited though lately..like it seems like all of this homework just doesnt exist because im all ready for saturday..but then again im being a MAJOR procrastinator


hmm...i hope everything works out..please..just this time..do ahh..


anywho i think im done..

later love

Lauren :D

09:06 pm: girls night = the coolest
ha id have to say it was a learning experience..


what did i learn u ask? here ya go

1.NEEEEVER JOKE AROUND WITH A FIVE YEAR OLD ABOUT "DOORS & HOUSES"
2.pregnant ppl are cute haha
3. five year olds take everything seriously
4.never be EASY, SOLID, OBSESSIVE, MEAN &/or BOSSY lol it gets you nowhere
5.EAT EVERYTHING IN SIGHT FOR HOURS...lol
6.KATIES EASY HAHA , SARAS SOLID
7. when life gets ya down, just keep swimming
8.when girls get together..its gossip city
9.the aftermath of a sugar high is never good
10. taking a drive test the morning after a sugar high is even better lol
11.if i could explain everything that was funny and happened...it wouldnt be funny to u
12. "YOURE SUPPOSED TO COME FIND ME!!"



goodness love my friends..


oh boy..my tummy still hurts tho..


later love
Lauren

10:35 pm: TAKE THE SHACKLES OFF MY FEET SO I CAN DANCE
"everything that could go wrong all went wrong at one time so much pressure fell on me thought i was gonna lose my mind but i know u wanna see if i will hold on through these trials but i need you to lift this load cause i cant take it no more"


"god has broken every chain"

well..lets just say my day we super stressful..

hmm...

i guess my song just goes to say how im feeling.. lots of praising the lord right now for what i have and for some guidance..yep

thanks to all of my friends..even the little things helped so much today

i love u guys


later
Lauren

04:56 pm: yeaay!
hmmm..lately life has been pretty fun

last night staying the night with jayci and her cousin was hilarious..we scared ourselves to death ..and thought we were all going to die..it was so fun haha


and today i came home..and we continued our car shopping...and i finally decided..


the other day we went looking and i found a volkswagen beetle and an eclipse..after narrowing that down..today i looked in a whole different direction and i now am an owner of a 2000 red mustang..and im a very content with that

one bad things..its a stick..oooh buddy..this should be interesting ..trying to learn how to drive a stick..uh oh

o well..

anywho im going to eat dinner then get ready for softball..so im done


later love

Lauren

10:00 pm: YAY!!
so this week has been going pretty well..*pleeease stay that way..pleez!!*


.."her killer instinct tells her to beware of evil men".. sorry i found like my favorite song ever and have been listening to it for about ..two days straight i LOVE IT

anywho..tomorrow is going to be super cool

mary came over tonight and we made shirts and we have our shorts and our tights haha..its pretty cute i must admit..we are going to look amazingly weird..but thats the fun in it right?

well anywho i cant wait for the game ! and afterwards most likely harveys then mary is staying the night..good times to come..yay ..(hopefully)


well im sorry i have a boring life and i just felt like updating..bcuz there was nothing to do..but i dont really have anything to update about ..


well later love

Lauren :D

11:46 pm: hmm i havent updated in for like..ever?
so..it seems longer than it really was

but here goes..

i hope everyone had an amazing christmas and new years! ..

last night was super duper fun..i love all of those girls dearly! ..that twenty dollar bill thing was a lot to handle tho..lol..LIKE OMGOSH ITS ROLLING!! anywho


...the last like ..week ive been like hanging out with friends i dont get too much and it has been a great time..im pretty excited

and..hanging out with someone else :D ...goodness..well i better not go there..its too easy for me to end up jynxing (sp) things


well i really dont want break to end..ive had too much fun with 80s dress up, formal, punk etc dress up. and chicken limbo with tiny lol..and just random things.

hmm i guess thats about it..

later love
Lauren
;)